Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Splish splash

I want to be a kid again! I am a kid inside actually, but I miss her. She's been sidelined for this quasi-fembot.Wake up,shower,dress,work,eat breakfast,work,eat lunch,work,maybe go grab a freezo, work, go to class on Monday and Wednesday, wolf down whatever's quickest for dinner, sleep,wake up in a sweat thinking about work, fit full sleep, wake up, do it all over again for very little money!Eek!
Scary just writing that out!

I need to play again. I wanna grab my friends Bailey and Rochie and we can do this!
Something about water and this summer heat and these two new true friends who I know would be all up in this hosepipe splashing madness with me!

Or even by myself, I'd love to do this.

Need I say more.
As we bask in this glorious summer heat. As those of us sans swimming pool, desperately dream of slipping beneath that cool water, gliding along the bottom, submerged in a cool slick of bliss. Water, swimming, just screams of childhood, fun, freedom and newness. I'm in desperate need of all of the above. Not to mention the inexplicable happiness that accompanies all of the above.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Beauty sleeping

I'm not feeling particularly broody, but today, more than most days, I feel like being with a sleeping baby. Not my nephews, but my own. My own little bundle of sleeping, beauty.

it truly is..
The one magical, miraculous, most unequivocally special person, to whom  I can truly say,

There is nothing better and more beautiful than a baby. But a sleeping baby. In those few moments of silence and peace, they encompass all that is right and beautiful with the world. As you watch this little ball of perfection look perfectly at peace and their little chests rise and fall and their mouths let out the littlest sighs of blissful sleep, you are all at once amazed and grateful at this wonderful miracle of God. Life has meaning and you know there is no greater love.

Even Audrey Hepburn agrees.

This is what I wanted to do today more than anything.Well frankly one of the things I always wanted to do in my life was a have a little boy and watch him sleep. There is no particular rush, but today more than ever this would really ease my soul and make life make Perfect sense.
Gustav Klimt painted it.

Call me crazy, I love them awake, asleep, even when they're a little cranky, because well babies are the best! There is no word yet devised to describe their level of awesome. But when they are asleep, it just ups the ante of amazing to a whole new level.

Winnie the Pooh says love is a feeling.

Friday, October 21, 2011

When they fall...

It's that glorious time of year again. Jacaranda's are starting to bloom. Joburg is covered top and bottom in a sea of purple blossoms.

It's been 2 tough weeks. The heart's been high and heavy all at once, but that is life. Life is short my friends and there really is no time for fussing and fighting.

The falling jacaranda flowers have just made me look at life and love in so many different ways. We lose great loves and those aren't of the romantic kind. Family is so important. Keep them close,be honest and love them with all you have. I held my father's hand on Saturday. For the first time in many many years. It's so important to be close to those you love.

Another great lesson learnt and which I've been teaching myself over the year especially is how to make a clear distinction between friends and people you've known for a long time. Clearly there are many people I've known for a long time.

I love this time of year and this year in particular has proven to be a time of gain and a time of immense loss. And in some instances I've gained by losing or letting some things go.

Ze Germans have a wonderful saying at this time of year Fruhlingsgefuhle. It means spring feelings. The feeling where everyone starts to fall in love at this time of the year.

Wishing you plenty Fruhlingsgefuhle. May you fall madly in love with whomever and whatever you next encounter that speaks to your heart and makes you feel alive.

May you also be showered in plenty purple rain. May you be sprinkled with the greatest luck of a jacaranda blossom, when they fall...

Thursday, October 6, 2011

A JOB(s) well done...


Applying toner to my face this morning, I strangely had the tv on (weird for me),but clearly it had to be on. And there I heard the news, "Steve Jobs gone at 56." I thought nothing of it, I was like maybe they were talking about the Apple Iphone 4S. So as I felt a strangely uncomfortable and sad as I approached the tv to investigate further, the sad news was confirmed...

I am SO sad about this. What a loss! Like a serious loss. I feel it in my heart. The world has lost a serious genius, but we have gained so much with the magic he created. He's right up there with greats where he belongs, though he's probably started a new list that they never new they needed!

So much learnt from him, so much to learn. Here are a few insights, just to remind us, just how much we should LIVE before we die. We don't know how much time we have left.

"Remembering I'll be dead soon is one of the most important tools I've encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart." Steve Jobs
I don't know if I'm going to die tomorrow, but on my way to the grave, this is so important to remember. Let's not wait till we have confirmation that death is coming much sooner than we thought. Thank you Steve Jobs. Was there ever a more apt name. Job(s) well done, Steve.

"Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already now what you truly want to become." - Steve Jobs

And as this has suddenly  made me reflect a lot on my life, I cannot part without the MOST insightful words I think I've heard in my adult life.

"Stay hungry. Stay foolish." - Steve Jobs

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Okay I love it most times...

Paris, Je t'aime.

Paris. yes!My city, my home for some time.Actually the one place I felt most at home, yet also most alone. Great place of personal polarity.

Lately I've been thinking about Paris a lot. Weird!I definitely had a severe dislike for it, upon my return, but maybe not the place so much, but some of the people!
A few of my favourite haunts in the city of lights!

Moi! Sitting on the Rive Gauche, but sans cigarette.

But it is a beautiful city and maybe I'd like to give my ex,Paris (the city), another chance.Maybe I'd like to live there again just for a bit or even an extended visit, just to reacquaint myself with le lover, Paris, and maybe it could get to know me as I am now. Partly thanks to Paris.

A little Vespa to get around.

L'entreee to mon apartement.
In the right arrondisement.
Une bonne journee, starts with breakfast on the balcony at the Plaza Athenee

Ah Paris tu me manques. Gros biz xx

Monday, October 3, 2011

Thinking About it...

On days like this, when Monday's really don't seem to get bluer. Coming home to some strong,loving arms, broad shoulders and ears to listen to the rantings and maybe little sobs, really would be ideal.

So thinking about love and all its trappings...

Been hearing about this singer, Frank Ocean for the longest time. Found this tune from him.
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