Monday, April 23, 2012

Lounging around

Love the contrasts in here.

So it seems some semblance of winter has come to Joburg today and as with the change of many seasons, it seems it's got me thinking about change and my space.Okay well, my life is in one hell of a flux at the moment, so change is my first name at the moment. Just trying to keep up with the pace..

Moving into a new apartment a few months back.Super awesome, but super scary and taxing and whole lot of work-ing.

Love the light, the colour and the couch.

Now looking at the current arrangement of my lounge has mea little out of sorts and I think I want to move things around. Don't like the placement of the 2 couches and the chairs. I feel like I'm constantly tripping over  the one couch (imagine that). I feel I'd prefer the flow a little more from my dining area into the lounge area if I put my 2 chairs where the couch is. Interior design dilmenas that I have. perhaps I should use all my girl strength and move couches and chairs. Think I will feel better. Just like I did when I was scrubbing my floors and cleaning my oven yesterday.

Lovely light, warmth and flow.

Is anyone relooking their space at the moment?...I know Bailey is redoing her kitchen.So excited for her, and I know it'll be just magnificent. Can't wait.

Little inspiration from Sex in the City perhaps?

Mm...I think I've decided, I'm moving the furniture around. It seems I have some heavy lifting to do then...

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Tasty Tuesday

Not my kitchen, but a girl can dream. I do have a window though.

The air in Joho is getting crisper and crisper by the day and getting up from under a warm fluffy duvet is even more difficult. The kitchen is so far away when you think of making breakfast before you start your day and unlike the old days with those lovely stoves that used to heat up the whole house, I'm more prone to scurrying to my kitchen on my frozen tip toes.

The thing is about this weather. It makes you hungry. Moreover for me, it makes me want to be in my kitchen, firstly to make it warm,but mostly to make food that will warm my body and soul and the ones I love.

Almost always.

Most people think it's the weather for soups and stews, all that warmth and slow cooking. I agree, on the slow cooking part. As my family and my dear friend Bailey can attest to, I'm not a big fan of eating neither soup nor stew, but boy do I love making them. The anomale that is I. Last year, I perfected butternut soup, servedwith buttered sage, this year, I have a new soup d'hiver ("winter" in french) that I want to turn into my tatsy master piece. Roast tomatoe and roast pepper soup. Yummy! I love the smell.Lots of fresh basil, the sweetness of the peppers, the tomatoes, the hint of balsamic vinegar..And it has the right consistency. Maybe, just maybe, this will be my first forray into actually eating soup. Just maybe...

So that's what I'll be trying tonight. I see leeks are now in season.Oh good goodness, that means more interesting recipes, with yummy leeks in.

My friend I haven't seen in ages is coming for dinner tomorrow.He's a 6ft4 African man! So it's meat and potatoes tomorrow. MaybeI'll sautee leeks and potatoes! To go with the rosemary and garlic marinaded steak.

Potatoes with everything! Yum-O!

As I seem to be getting quite into this Meet Free Mondays thing, Miss Matlala would be proud of her influence I think, the rest of the week is my foodie playground. I wish I could commit to a weekly blog feature on all things yummy food related on Tuesdays, but I'm a little committment phobic at the moment. (hides face in shame)

What wonderful winter delights will you be cooking up this winter or actually just in general?

Stay awesome. Keep it tasty!

So here we all are...

Sjoe hey! (wipes brow, even though there is no sweat). Life is hard, but it is beautiful. Man oh man.

So Quarter 1 is done over. Can I go to sleep now? Can I wake up and in spring perhaps?! No chance. As much as Jozi is swiftly speeding its way out of autumn and hurridly heading into winter, so my life is mirroring these seasonal chances. At a rather prodigious rate might I add. Anyone say #scarymuch. So I think I've been in an almost autumn/winter of my life. Man had I known, I'd have chosen to add some fashionable flair to match. I've sort of been in life hibernation for a bit or rather perhaps suspended in the dredges of inaction for a while. I can't call it a rut, it definitely felt like a season, but like any season, it's transitory and thank bloody goodness for that.

I do.

So now I think it's time for me to head North for the winter (not physically unfortunately). But dare I say the spring of my life is about to begin. The Fall (and at times it felt distinctly like that) is about to end, I think I can feel it coming to an end. Or is it just me looking anxiously at that proverbial light at the end of this very looong tunnel?!

Sometimes...yes, we're working on always. But is that really realistic.

It's a time of great change in my life. From career direction (much needed) to hair and other aspects of my life. Change is everything. (I heard 'em say) Um...where is the line where they said it's SCARY! FREAKING FRIGHTENING. SO UNSETTLING! You doubt yourself at every turn ( a little difficult when you've taken a no 1 clipper to your head). My most frustrating part is the constant question, AM I DOING THE RIGHT THING? I guess I don't know until I do it and it's done. All I have to do is just do something. It's difficult yes, I'm living it. But it's necessary (again, so they say).

The thing I'm realising more and more is just how difficult letting go is.Letting go is hard to do. On so many levels, people and things. Some of my friends and I have all been going through a spring clean (yep in autumn), but spring comes whenever you need it to. I'm clearing out 2 store rooms as well. I'm standing grappling with what to do with pictures of ex boyfriends. What will I honestly need them for in my new house. Clothes, some are far too big to even look reasonably pull off-able, but still.Attachment is a tough one. Why do we get so attached?human nature...I want to cry just saying this. More and more though I've realised just how much more of what I need comes into my life when I let go of things and people I know deep down inside I do not need in my life. It's true though, we can make anyone seem so amazing in our heads, even though they prove time and time again just how much they are not.When you care deeply for someone, you'll make so many excuses, defying your own reasonable sense.But like all excuses they get tired and you know what to do. It's so much easier on the other side of it all.

I realised I'd made up my own quotable quote yesterday when I said to my sister,"Remember that it is by no coincidence that your life is a lot better without certain people that you chose to let go of."

More and more the power of a cup of tea becomes more apparent to me.

Things are easier to let go of, eventually you can break the attachment, it's far more tangible, but people, often a toughie, but as you get going you realise the truth. Getting detached makes you see things far clearer.

The main point of letting go and clearing out, is that you're making space. Space to breathe, space to let in the light and the greatness.

But all I can do, all I can offer myself are steps in the direction I want to go in. "Cover me I'm going in!"

Every point in life needs a soundtrack. In my current state of angst, change, anxiety, excitement, trepidation, hesitation, exploration, absolute despair, confusion, happiness and all ambit of emotions, I've rediscovered Made in Heights. Thank you to the ever AMAZING Muptee and her musical genius  self for introducing me to this amazing music.

I somehow had this track on repeat today. The beginning music kind of sounds like an alarm, which seems kind of fitting for what I feel like my life is like right now. Have a listen...

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

#Miserable much?

I am...Anxious!  Almost no sleep. Not much of an appetite. Just plain miserable. (Insert sad face here)
Can I just do a little of this and try life out again tomorrow?
So many decisions to make, so overwhelmed by them all, I'm just frozen in one spot. Bleaksies. This too shall pass. Sure a little sleep will make it all seem slightly more bearable.

Life is short, it can be hard, but it really is very beautiful. (this is taking a little convincing today)

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Gotta keep it moving kids!

So I'm not fooled. April is here! Wow! Where did the year go? Feels like it's only starting now quite frankly. Maybe it's because I'm letting stuff go. Not all bad. Mostly scary and nerve wracking, but I like to tell myself I'm making space for  the AMAZING.

So much I want to do. I SO DESPERATELY miss writing and being in that space, where I'm delighted by the magic of putting words together. So venturing into exploring that again.

More than that I'm starting to have some real conversations with myself and see what I like and what I want to do again, so I'm consequently getting myself into this vortex of inspiration almost. A little bit of Awesome I'd say. Lots of awe too! So much in this little ol' head of mine.

What I'm exploring a lot is being brave. If you want something, there is nothing, but to go for it. SO MUCH easier said than done, but SO MUCH LESS scary when you actually just do it.And how quickly it gets done might I add. Most of all, how that initial fear just dissipates with each exploratory, adventurous, bold step. Whatever the answer is ultimately, you'll have an answer and it will  never be I DON'T KNOW or I WONDER. (something to ponder, just a little bit).

There are so many of us taking great, bold steps at the moment to follow our dreams and I wish us all the best fun on our separate adventures and may we continue to go boldly in on all our intrepid adventures.And may the universe wholly conspire to help us reach all our deepest desires. Help the universe along though and get moving!

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