Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Exit?! Not so fast!




I flee! I realised this about myself. Some people may sugar coat it and say they check out or side step, but it really has been dawning on me more and more that I have a significant ability to flee. I do it so well though, I go very quietly and gently. You don't even realised that I left. Also I'm clever in that I do not get that attached to most people, but they don't realise. Part of protecting my heart now from the fierce love that I give those I love. Too many hurts, shouldn't change a person, but they sure do make you more cautious!!

Also it was so easy to leave. I was never fully attached. People who come into our lives and even those who stay, come with a lesson or perhaps many. I like that. Some lessons are harder to learn and more painful, but not all of them.

I'm liking these lessons though. I flee. Sometimes it's not safer to leave. Leaving is not the only option when I'm uncomfortable. There may just be more comfort in staying.

It's so weird that I find staying so much harder. Good to know this about myself though and well say it out loud. Better still, I stayed. Oh and I still choose to stay.

Staying...let's try this. The French word, "rester" means to stay. I think I may just find peace, love and calm in the space that I don't flee.

xx

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Trevor on Tuesday


This little face is now major!

So yes!! We're proud to be South African!! Always when people make us so proud! Well done Trevor!!

Can't believe this little face is a big grown person on international tv right now! YAY!!!

I'm about to tune in to The Daily Show...hosted by Trevor Noah! Hello life!! This is MAJOR!!

Well done ma se kind!!


Monday, September 28, 2015

Mag love


The Talent at Hannah


So excited to discover a new mag. Thanks to the ever on it Kitsi, who put me on this!! Hannah mag has arrived!

Love a discovery of this nature on a Monday. New stuff to read is always awesome!!

Check out the Hannah Mag - instagram

Happy reading.

Keen to see and share this.

xx 


Friday, September 25, 2015

Friday! Hey! ;)



yes you ;) Compliments over complaints always!!{source}
Long weekend, means Friday seems a little more luxurious to me. Like we just get a little extra time. What a treat! Loves it!!

Have a beautiful weekend, wonderful lovely hearts!

xx

Here is my reading list for the weekend:

Can't wait to watch The Intern
I take hair inspiration from these boys with braids
Sip on this summer cocktail


Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Worry not.

This is a great note to self. Even better for a papa to write to his little girl.




We're heading into a long weekend.  I'm off to teach.

Be Marvellous!!

xx


Tuesday, September 22, 2015

This is important

Today I learnt patience. So late in the game you may say. I learnt the lesson today and it felt good. It felt freeing, it felt right and it felt like nothing at all. All at once.
It is a beautiful thing. When it comes. Just be. Don't hold it, don't gawk at it, just let it be what it will be. It doesn't want attention, it knows that you know.


Monday, September 21, 2015

Here we go!!



If there was a day when I was less ready to adult than today, but here I am, somewhere between shoulder spasm and toddler sensory overload outburst.

I dressed up though (my socks are sparkly) and I'm showing up.(worry not, still looking for an exit option(old habits die super hard!!!!))

I was looking forward to today, I still am, but as the day approached, so did the terror and fear of having to show up and be me and be fully there. All of me or even a lot of me, is a lot to give. I do it with so few and have successfully avoided it for so long and also not to forget, getting away with it! Now it seems my time is up and while there is some fear, I am a little relieved.

Let's do this people of mine.

I'll see me on the other side. The best way forward is through .

xx

Friday, September 18, 2015

Hello weekend

It's you I've been looking for! Frankly, because that's a little closer to Monday. And I'm looking forward to Monday. {insert huge grin here}


and late Friday, yes and Saturday too...

Wishing you a wonderful weekend. Languish in the sunshine as it heats up here in the Southern Hemisphere. Cuddle up close up north or enjoy the last truly warm days, before the leaves turn and fall.

As we wind down this Friday afternoon and others elsewhere are only beginning their Friday. May it be beautiful.

Here are some reads for the weekend;

I want to play this game 
Thank you like this
I do enjoy a little Anne Hath

xx

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Wednesday wonderings

From {here}
You know, making the decision to quit formal employment and realy explore my curiousities as it were, was both brave and crazy, all at once. The one thing noone tells you though, is just how much money it costs firstly, but the other costs are mentioned even less.

This morning, doing my internet reading, I came across this incredible article on Refinery 29 on "This is what DEBT looks like."
I am and was always wise with money, since I was a kid, I was a saver, always liked to keep my money and watch it grow. Thank goodness for that. I always had money. I also do love a good budget and sticking to it. I generally come back with money from my travels even.

So imagine my intense internal rattling when I branched out on my and the money started to diminish at a prodigious rate! People don't pay on time and that my friends affects budgets. We shan't even count the ones who think paying consultants is purely optional. I don't know many people who enjoy asking for their money and I think I may enjoy it even less, but I have had to get pretty strict now.

I am also terrible at using other people's money. Always been about making my own money and also sticking to my own decisions. Stubborn perhaps, but it's always been important to me.

Money matters matter! I've learnt this. It's a question of stability and also helps you realise what you cherish in life. Money pays the bills yes and let's us buy great groceries, a lack of it brings a lot of perspective.

Lack of money though does not equal lack of me. Clients pay, life carries on and the money comes.  Don't let lack or abundance of money change who you are though. Pay your bills too. It's important.

Stay curious ;)

xxxxx

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Flowers for me

{source}

Tuesdays are usually tough for me, so I'm being proactive this time and sending myself flowers in advance.

Need the brightness in these blooms. Lucky me, I still have some left over from my birthday so I will inhale them in for the day.

If all else fails, I'm just going to giggle at these tips.

xx

Friday, September 11, 2015

Hey you ;)


"Happiness is sometimes hidden in the unknown." {SOURCE}


Friday!! You beauty! Good to see you. I had a wonderful Thursday night, which made it easier to ease into Friday. First week of my new year almost. Loving my life. Constantly reminding myself that it's not a bad life, just a bad day. Yes they will come! BUT, just as they come, so do they go!!

Happy weekend to you all. If you're in the Southern Hemisphere like us, Spring sure is spr
inging...So sunshine and outdoor time to for me without a doubt.

Here is my little reading list for the weekend;

I've been singing this since I woke up..."You make it look like it's magic,"
One of my fave spring strolls is through the FNB Joburg Art Fair
NO explanation needed!

Have a beautiful weekend.

Sunshine, light and lightness to your hearts.

xx
  
 

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Over...over it...




I'm an over thinker, it ruins things. I try not to ad I'm getting better at it. Why, because more than anything I believe in the magic.

xx

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

walk on the work side

{SOURCE}
I'm heading back into corporate... I've grown a lot and I've eaten a lot of humble pie too and I've never been happier and more at peace. This is the right decision for me right now. I love that.

I'm looking forward to wearing heels on most days and suits too. Looking forward to the routine and also learning new stuff and also just sitting behind a desk and having internal chuckles at office politics. Also looking forward to just agreeing and being. I'm growing up.

Living a full life, comes with realisations and decisions.

XX

Friday, September 4, 2015

Friday!!


Need lots of this. Taking this with me!



Birthday weekend!! That's something to be excited about right. Yho! Feeling the transition this time around! I must say. It's been a tough one, but I really believe there is a lot of great stuff on the other side of this.

My birthday weekend reads:


Have a beautiful weekend.

Light, lightness and love xx 

Thursday, September 3, 2015

I love...spring time

Perfect outfit for a chilly Spring day in Joburg. {source}

Happy Thursday.

Someone said to me the other day that I'm either 100% in or 100% out... I see nothing wrong with that. This captures it perfectly.

“There is nothing I would not do for those who are really my friends. I have no notion of loving people by halves, it is not my nature.” 

Jane Austen - Northanger Abbey



xx

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Spring to it



I do love and I mean LOVE this season. More and more, as I am blessed to have many beautiful babes in my life and my own special babes (nephews and nieces) grow up, I am really reminded about the passing of time. From newborn snuggles, to 6 month old giggles and chasing toddlers and then the first pair of skinny jeans comes, all too soon. More than anything what having babies in my life has taught me, is about about WONDER and just how preciius each moment is and how much enhoyment you get from just being in it. With children we are deeply submerged in the moment. We are not worried about it passing or what is coming next, what we do is that we are in it! That is the most important thing of all. Isn't it wonderful?! That is magic. Also it is always a marvel to know that your heart an hold so much love and that it could almost burst!

Spring is a new season and it is always such a great reminder that the winter is over. As is the winter of our lives. I love the sunshine and warmth. I am a spring baby. Born in this season. What I'm learning though is to be fully immersed in whatever is happening. The moment. I always prided myself on multi tasking, but as time goes by I've just realised that it is all a little silly really, because I never am fully involved in something and on the whole it takes really so much longer to get stuff stuff. Also I feel I don't give each task the love and respect it deserves. This of course is a daily reminder practice, some days are better than others. Just a little bit of the yoga of my life. I am trying to sprinkle this stuff everywhere.

Spring comes with cleaning, the ever proverbial clean. My bestie and her sisters have been all about the Kondo-ing lately and I will be getting on it. The anxiety at even tackling my clothes. My delicious dad thinks that I have a lot of clothes and that is where all my money goes. (he is mistaken, food is where all my money goes.hihhi). Tomorrow, we tackle clothes. I'm excited and terrified. Looking forward to keeping only the stuff that brings me joy.

Enjoy the day, enjoy the moment, enjoy the joy, enjoy the season. Time is passing, it is a present to be present.

Love, light, spring flowers and joy to you all

xx




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